Oh welll

Everyone called me a saint when i helped the poor...
They called me a communist when i asked why the poor are poor...
- some communist fella

first of all... before i start this post
Ming khai....

Good luck mate...=)....

He chiaoed this afternoon...
back to MA Lay Si Ya....

the photo i took with him i think its with jamie...

=P watever it is mate....you already picked a choice...there is no way back eh? good luck...=)

ok ok back to the main character...which is
*fanfare*
ME!...=)

oh well....I kena-ed criticize when i posted my relationship with Yoshi....
but how come when my brother admitted that his gay partner is Barney the purple dino
macam everyone support him seje?...

anyway....since mom sent my DSLR without my charger...so yea...its been long since i took some decent high quality pictures...nt that i'm saying i'm a very good photographer compared to D or choong yang.... but yea...i loveeee taking pictures....anyway the main point is....there won't be any pics in this blog...so if you hate long posts with words....so i advice you click the cross icon on the upper right corner of your window now...=) thanks....

anyway...Life in adelaide had been good i guess...other than dear old lame ming khai left us....
when I am alone which is now(soph's asleep) I think alot... (thats why i hate being alone)
It kept me wondered and bothered
what will happen to us?my gang of friends here in adelaide and those back in malaysia...eventually everyone have to follow their own path....to different courses...different uni..different states....and even a different country....(though i have a feeling phillip that bastard gonna stick with me for awhile...stop following me you idiot!)....
afterall, this is life aight? someone have to make decisions... decides...plan....
this is life....not that i'm saying after our eventual separation we'll never gonna be friends anymore...but this changed my view on life...
Appreciate
Love
Enjoy

afterall, Life's not that long....
they say i'm having the best time of my life....not that i disagrees....but why must it be now? In the next session I am going to talk about my past ambitions...this is the first time ever...other than people who are very close to me knew this....

have you people ever wonder, whats gonna be in ten years time when you are 10 years old? or every five years? yea...i do...i use to dream that I'll end up somewhere in europe for college but instead...i am in adelaide now....i use to dream that I'll do very well in secondary school....and yet i did not...and guess what? last time i always wanted to be a historian...I worked hard for it....but during form 2 or 3 when i told mom about my ambition...just a mere sentence shut me up..."you think, you'll earn money after you graduate??" After much thought i gave up my ambition...altough i did get an A in history...=P cause it is the only subject i studied during SPM....so i changed ambition...i tried to imagine myself as a pshychologist...i did tell mom and dad about this new found ambition....they agreed.....for some reason....i changed my mind AGAIN...Guess why i gave up this ambition...its because of the eventual break up with one of my girlfriend...she told me...I am too childish for her...this changed my view towards myself(nt that i'm saying i am nt childish not=____=).and for some weird reason the third cita-cita of mine....I told my parents i want to be in the military....at first...mom's reaction's something like this =O...yeah the "wat the fuck is my son thinking" reaction...but after she discussed it with dad...they told me...they will give me what i want but in one condition...I can never fuck up in studies anymore...means no more hanging out with friends...no more drinking...no more yum chas...and that i have to quit leo.....because they told me if i want to get into the royal military college....i'm gonna need a very good result....after much thought...i decided not to give up everything just for this dumb ambition of mine...(anyway...when D first knew this...his first two words are COOL man! =P". Soon after that....I thought of many other possible route....when dad was fetching me to tuition one night i told him i want to be a chef...this idea of mine kena shot down instantly...lol....faster than Hsien han come running for me for the stupid america football....(but seriously he is fast for his size)....=P....yea...so i finally gave up on all stupid dreams...and here i am...doing a commerce foundation studies....my parent's happy...I am happy (due to the light workload)....but something just feel not right...2 reasons....i feel very left out among my friends....3 quarters of them are doing engineering foundations or science foundations...even chee yong...==....another thing is that.... i had been right all along...I can cook!....this is the main reason.....

This few days when mom called me....i kept telling her...i cooked this and cooked that...and hoped that she'll say..."OOOO really? why not stop wat you are doing now and enroll into LCB?"....but i know its impossible....like wat Dad told gor gor about his restaurant ambition "do you think you can send your children to other country if you are a cook?".....yeah dad's always right in some sense....==....dad and mom just want their children to be rich and successful ain't it? May be this is just my life...SO what's gonna be it in ten years time from now on? TMCK(family business)....my own company? gonna work my ass out for other people? sheesh...life's not that long to change it...

so...what's gonna be it?

anyway....off to bed

Zhao_farn