N-O M-A-T-T-E-R W-H-A-T I-T I-S....

I looked outside...
the first thing i noticed..
I am sweating all over...
I turned on the bloody aircond without opening my eyes
but after awhile I noticed...I AM NOT IN ADELAIDE...
I stand up, after around 6 years staying in this room
I never noticed my room had changed so much
I,
Looked at the air soft guns dad bought me throughout the years
Looked at the pikachu i threw at bro halfway sleep walking or jumping...
Looked at the photos....
Looked at the big ultraman and the map i drew of the fantasy world i created
Looked at all the novels i bought...
Looked at the curtains...
Looked through my highschool textbooks and the funny drawings inside
Looked at the poster of John Terry and beckham( which is full of bullet holes)
I even found a piece of paper which is full of writings by me,D,Foo,Vince and luke
the paper's from way back...suppose form 2 or 3, during puan chaw's tuition...
and i even found the pokeman toys which i use to play with...
but at last.... one thing
one thing that,
I can't help but noticed...
this is no longer my place...
no longer the place i use to locked myself in and cried over stupid relation breakups, poor results , arguments....
no longer the place i call MY personal space,
no longer the place i wanted to stay in and think of my future,
no longer the place mom nagged me and bro for fighting...
may be this is part of the growing stage...
I don't know
...or may be one day when i wake up and realize
damn..this is my room again...


dammit...


bro's right...i woke up the next day and asked myself....why the hell am i here...

yea...KY said we should feel happy cause we are back...cause we can be with our family...yeah she memang ada point...

but other than that...why am I here?
frens all chiao edi although they did came back....=) thanks ppl...but what about weekdays? ==...
the million dollar question...==...

anyway happy belated birthday to EUUuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu the short dumbo...

Chiao...
Rice....=)...